La Recherche du Temps Perdu

Thu, 25 May 2006 15:32:55 GMT

Hm...I have not written in this in some time. What does that mean? Probably just that I have been too busy occupying my time with other things such as cooking, loving, being unemployed and twiddling my thumbs. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am a bum. I'm not taking any classes for the summer and I have yet to find a second job, so if anyone wants to come visit or lend me a few dollars, please do.

Actually, I've been a little bored. I suppose I could be devoting time to my hobbies- or perhaps finding some. Eh.

Everything else is good. Tracey and I got a little husky puppy. He is our new baby, named Habbersham. Cute little furball, pretty smart, I'm going crazy because he's the only creature I've been hanging out with recently.

I need to figure out a new plan of action.

Some help please?

For the Record

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 19:09:52 GMT

Mates of State is great!!!

Best date show ever.

I heart the Great Pacific Northwest

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 18:03:42 GMT

Well kids, I am back from Seattle and let me tell you how Tracey and I were milliseconds away from just buying a house and a dog and never coming back.

All in due time.

Anyway, my trip to Seattle was wonderful. I had the best tour guide ever and we did sooooo much when we were there. These activities are including but not limited to:

-Going to the Pike Street Market and buying the best $10 hats ever
-Taking a ferry across the Puget Sound
-Space Needle
-Drinking coffee at five million different Starbucks
-The Experience Music Project where we saw this huge thing on Bob Dylan, the guitar Jimi Hendrix played at Woodstock, and Kurt Cobain's sweater among other things
-Driving to the Pacific Ocean (beautiful)
-Driving through Kurt Cobain's hometown in Aberdeen. Their welcome sign reads "Come As You Are"
-Shopping at Capitol Hill and the U-District
-Me shooting a sniper rifle (hilarious)
-Seeing V for Vendetta, which was great and now I want to shave my head.
-Tracey and I going snowboarding, falling on our asses and getting pwned by seven year olds (we were sooooo sore the next day but it was totally worth it). At least I made it off the ski lift without falling.

I probably forgot something but oh well. All in all, I really loved it there- I can see why Tracey wants to go back. We have lots of pictures which we will hopefully get developed today. They'll probably go up on MySpace or something.

By the way, she's the best.

And now I have fifty million things to do. Ugh.

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 04:28:33 GMT

Going to Seattle for a week, bright and early in the morning.

Bye.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 21:09:47 GMT

Hm...I can only get online like every four days now. It's kind of annoying sometimes but mostly refreshing. I don't have internet at the apartment; I don't have cable either, and I barely use the lights unless absolutely necessary. I love it. If anyone hasn't been over yet, please do.

Life has been going ok. School is good (99% on my Great French Love Stories midterm!), work is good, second work is good. I have a photo project due today which I thought would be crappy, but might actually be ok. Can't wait to start working on the final one. I've been painting too which is nice. Different.

Saw Coldplay last night with David- a very belated birthday present, but definitely worth the wait. They were awesome. Fiona Apple was good too. Baaaaa. I thought the night had potential to be awkward, but it was very enjoyable. So yay. :)

I leave for Seattle a week from tomorrow with Tracey!!!!

::Excitement::

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 04:19:14 GMT

This week basically sucked. Between passing out at work, spending the night in the hospital, missing an exam, missing the review for an exam, missing two jobs and hurting someone's feelings- I feel like life should give me a break. Only good parts were my RENT party, seeing Cassie, doing a good photo project, and watching RENT about six times. It's all downhill from there.

Luckily...things should (and are) looking up. I am resolving to be normal and boring for a while.

Thanks to everyone who baby-sat my ass for the last two days.

Anyone have any sweet ideas for a photo project?

RENT PARTY!

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 19:14:00 GMT

I will be purchasing the Rent dvd when it comes out next Tuesday and there will be a little get-together at my apartment to view it on Tuesday night after I get off of work (maybe around 10/10:30-ish?). I would love for many people to come- there will be wine and food, singing and bohemian theatrics. It promises to be swell.

Everything is going great in the new apartment- things are coming together, getting organized and looking lovely. School and work are good. Friends are great, love is grand. Life is good. :)

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 01:22:45 GMT

I'm in my apartment now and you should come see me.

That is all.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 18:39:45 GMT

Well I feel a little better now...still have a lot of stuff to do, but I'm working on it.

Tracey and I bought plane tickets to Seattle last night. We'll be going March 14th through the 20th, for Spring Break. I've never been to the West Coast before so this is super exciting.

First photo critique on Monday (yikes)!

That is all.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 07:47:29 GMT

I have the worst cramps ever right now...

and I got rear-ended on the way home from work tonight.

Today sucks.

So here's my update

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 06:57:41 GMT

This is probably the earliest that I have really been home in a while...work, school, and friends keep me out at all hours. Everything is going remarkably well- theatre is good, the hookah place is great so far, I love my friends and school is getting off to a decent start. We started processing our film in my photo class tonight which was really interesting/fun. Everything is set up for the apartment and I move two weeks from this Saturday.

Everything is great even though I am super busy. So I have no reason to feel bad right?

Yet why do I still get flustered whenever I come into contact with him? It's not like my life isn't good or that I don't feel ok with myself. I just can't shake it though. The only thing I can do is be strong and not let it bother me.

It's hard.

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 08:51:55 GMT

Financial Aid came today.

WOOOOOHOOOOO!

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 08:56:29 GMT

I'm a little tired and stressed and lonely. There's a lot on my plate right now in between school, Tampa Theatre, Meridian Hookah, preparing to move and the other little things in my life. My brain tells me I am going in the right direction- becoming independent and self-supportive- but why do I feel like I have to ask myself what that amounts to? I'm blue and a little lonely; I wish I had someone to tell about my days instead of typing them into my computer. I have some great friends, but even they seem a little absent lately.

But I made it through the first week of school, Brokeback Mountain, and the second job alive. And that is good enough for now.

And now I'm going to bed.

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 06:07:22 GMT

Photography is expensive as hell.

But it's going to be AWESOME.

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 09:04:34 GMT

Ok, it is ridiculously early in the morning but I need to update to let everyone know what a busy little bee I have been.

This last week before school begins again has been awesome. Lots of lazy time among other things. Tracey and I went thrifting for apartment furniture and she helping me find so great stuff, really cheap. My apartment is going to look great thanks to her. Hung out with Mark some and he's going to hook me up with photography stuff which is awesome. Brokeback Mountain started at Tampa Theatre this week and our first showing sold out- which never happens for movies. It was crazy. I sat in on part of the film today though and it's pretty good so you (meaning everyone) should go see it.

The biggest news is that I have succeeded in getting a second job- before I even really started looking. In addition to Tampa Theatre, I will now be working at Meridian Hookah Lounge on 56th by USF and it seems like it will be a decent job that will work around my schedules elsewhere. You all should come visit.

In short, I am insanely busy and almost happy.

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 08:06:29 GMT

So, my trip to Tennessee was good. I love my sister and Nick and my family. I just got home and now I'm tired.

That's pretty much it.

A thought:

They say that what you don't know won't hurt you and I happen to believe that this is true. I would like to be blissfully unaware of all the hateful and ignorant people in this world, so I will not have to be sorry for what I cannot change. Or at least be strong/mature enough to ignore it. I want to be and to live and to be happy with myself. I don't think this is too much to ask.

What do I want for the new year?

I want to live and grow, be a better person and accomplish many goals- all of which I believe I will be able to do.

We'll see, shall we?

Sitting in the Box Office...

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 00:36:04 GMT

Christmas is stressful...I have $20 to my name right now and more presents to finish. It's not even that cold outside. Christmas in Florida blows. But I am still happy for the break and maybe once I get all my crap done Christmas will be ok.

I have to work Christmas day though. Ugh. Oh well...they're going to pay me time and a half so I can't complain too much. At least it's not Christmas Eve- I would be way more upset if I had to work that day.

Tampa Theatre is hiring right now for the day box- Tuesdays, Thursdays and every other Friday. And I need another job...It would be perfect except for the fact that all my classes are on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Oh why, oh why can't it be MWF? Oh well. But if anyone is looking for a job, I can get you an application.

Tracey's Birthday is tomorrow!

And Merry Christmas to everyone.

Tout le monde regarde ce que je regarde, mais personne ne voit ce que je vois

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 18:13:14 GMT

So Tracey and I had our "End of the Semester" dinner party last night...I'd like to say that it was very successful....good food, lots of wine, lots of cupcakes and cake, good music and good company. I couldn't ask for more. It was great.

We are definitely doing this again when I move in the apartment in February.

...

I can't believe Christmas is a week away! I really need to get cracking on my gifts. Glad school is out so I can finally do so.

I think I got A's in all my classes. :)

And this song rocks.

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 09:24:28 GMT

Tracey tried to teach me to drive a stick shift at about 1:30am. Hahaha.
I didn't do too badly.

I need some sleep.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 01:15:47 GMT

So I haven't posted in a while.

Not much has happened.

I am glad school is winding down. I had my French Convo II final tonight which wasn't too bad; I have one tomorrow and two more next week and then I'm done. Can't wait.

I like this time of year. Now I can wear scarves and I don't look ridiculous.

Liz is back from Italy. She brought me a cool, artsy French book and absinthe-flavored chocolate. I love her.

I ate the absinthe chocolate for breakfast this morning. Yum.

I smoke too much.

In other news, I found an apartment. Can't move in for a while but at least it's in the works.

Life is pleasant.

Fin.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 14:51:31 GMT

The critics don't know what they're talking about....

RENT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Mark, You Gotta Hitch In Your Giddy-Up?

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 06:04:59 GMT

Mark and I just saw Walk the Line.
Pretty Sweet.

I'm still homeless.

The End.

Loving is Labor, Labor's Life and Life's Forever

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 07:07:14 GMT

Just a little update for all the kid's...

First and foremost, Happy Birthday to Kelsey.
Also, to Matt- get well.

Moving on...

Everything has been going well...been quite busy but that's a good thing. Working a bit. Making good grades in school. Smooth sailings. I finally feel like I don't have to pretend to be happy, because I might actually be.

So here's the rundown. Turned in a paper, got an A. Hung out with Trace at her apartment with her cousin's band. Good/hilarious times. Tonight I went to see Ted Leo with Matthew at the Orpheum which was awesome. They were great, played great songs, the whole works and I love his voice. I'm still looking for apartments but actually making some progress now so perhaps it won't be too long before I find a place to live. Today I bought a little sketchbook in hopes of channeling my artistic side (if I have one) and Mark and I are going to do some sweet projects. Rent comes out next week and I have the best friend in the whole wide world to go see it with. I don't have to work on Thanksgiving so I actually get to go home and see my family.

I know all these are small things, but it's wonderful to feel ok for no good reason. I would do anything to keep this up.

I've got to stop being nice to people

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:41:02 GMT

So I'm at work and one of the downtown Tampa Guides came up to the box office to give me a card about how "interesting" he thinks I am and about how he wants to "get to know" me. Great, right? He's probably at least 15 years older than I am.

Then again, so is the guy from the Hub but I wouldn't mind if he thought I was cute.

Why why why can't I find a guy I am interested in and who is likewise interested in me, around my age and there are no complications? Ah, to be young and single.

Just had to get that out.

(For Jamie) I registered my classes this morning and here is my what my schedule looks like for next semester:

MW Beginning Photography I, 7-9:50
TR Beginning Sign Language, 8-9:50
Intro to French Drama and Poetry, 11-12:15
French Composition I, 12:30-1:45
Great French Love Stories, 3:30-4:45

So yay for no class on Fridays and also for only one class on MW. I'm not sure about the Sign Language at 8 in the morning but that's the only time I can take it and I think it will be ok. All in all, I'm kind of excited about all my classes and two of them are taught by professors that I already have this semester so they should be fairly simple.

So yeah.
In other news,
I went to church with Renée and Steve on Sunday, probably the first time I've been in months, and that was good. I can't stop listening to the Rent soundtrack and I'm so excited about seeing the movie with Liz, cheesy as that may be. I'm looking for a place to live and realizing that I have no money. So if you know of a place that is cheap or have an extra room for me to stay in, help a girl out. I'm clean, quiet and I can cook sometimes.

And I'm probably going to see Dave in Tallahassee this weekend with Ellen. Rock.

I need make shorter posts.

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 20:42:00 GMT

So I recently finished reading On The Road by Jack Kerouac again. Let me just begin by saying that I love Kerouac. It seems to me that all of his writing is filled with such excitement, like there really is some huge, impending greatness out there that we have only to seek out and we will find it. Namely, I suppose it's experience. Or perhaps just the experience of the searching is enough. Nevertheless, he makes me believe that it is there.

As a result of rereading this book however, my restlessness is increasing. I want to move...I want to be somewhere else. I want to drive across the country and take my time and take in everything. I want to cross the ocean. I want to meet someone who I can talk to for hours and who will make me see things in a different way. I just want to spend a while looking at the world. The "Beat"-ness that is Kerouac is now bursting to get out of me.

And I am going crazy keeping it all inside.

I have a lot of plans and I feel like I am never going to get any of it done.

Nevertheless, I continue my existence without too much to feel bad about. I've been working a lot recently and going to school- not much else. I have a couple papers due that I have yet to start, but that seems to be normal in my life. I'm not worried. I feel like I ought to be doing something else though- besides school and work. Something creative- like making something or painting, or taking pictures again. I should work on that.

I get to register my classes on Monday morning so I better decide what I am going to take next semester. That will be fun. For some stupid reason, I always really like the time of year for registering classes. I guess because it gives me something to look forward to.

So yeah I guess that it's for now. I will continue and maybe next time some of that big, impending greatness will have found me. Or I will have found it.